........................ and then somewhere along the way i got lost.
Having a reflective moment that was brought upon me by the gripping feeling of being overwhelmed by everything caused me to journey back a little bit through my own mind and through my old blogs (this and a couple of others that are now inactive), i saw the person i hoped to be, the joy i had, the motivation and the inspiration that i found in life,
..................... and then somewhere along the way i got lost.
How it happened, i'm not sure. I still want the same things that i did a year ago but i somehow fell off the path and have been on a cross country trek through dust and fog to try and stumble my way back.
These days i just feel old and tired. It sounds a bit pathetic, i know this, i'm only 30 and i have two beautiful young boys that give me reason to feel alive each day. But still i look around me at what surrounds and i look inside myself at what i aspire to achieve and then i just feel lost.
This has to be the starting point for a new beginning, I just have to figure out which part to start at. The influential factors that will catapult this change will be health and diet, organisation and unstuffing, being an involved and available parent and the dream of simple living. I know i need to start somewhere, even with baby steps, i have every motivation that i need sitting right in front of me in the form of my most precious, adorable children. Now i just need to get to it, go out there and catch my dreams.
we all get lost along the way :) be kind to yourself and take slow baby steps they are the foundation of what you want in the end I have found. xx
ReplyDeleteI agree, although baby steps don't seem to get us anywhere fast enough and sometimes i feel as though if i don't take giant leaps i might not be able to stay focused enough to hold on.... but i am learning as i am ageing.... funny thing that x
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