Trusting in the process...

I don't feel happy all of the time. Certain people can make me feel happy effortlessly, like my children for example, joking, teasing, cuddling and conversing with them is a gaurunteed daily source of happiness. Even just for a fleeting moment. I am a very anxious person and though most people may see me as very social and extroverted, I am in fact more prone to enjoy my time by myself,  trying to find my peace and quiet and calm. I love people, I love to talk to, listen to and to help them but once I've had enough I need to shut everyone out. We are all  operate so differently and need to be allowed to experience our individuality.  In my heart I know that things will always be OK,  that I'll always have glimpses of happy but I'm just not sure that's enough. I know that my life could be different, better, but that involves some big changes and of course change is a very scary thing. For now I just have to trust in the process, have hope that instinctually I'll just figure it all out. 

Begin again...

It's been quite a while since I have visited my blog and shared my journey and thoughts, this little thing called 'life' got in the way :) I've been missing having a creative outlet but I'm really lost as to what it could be, this is a really good start. Thoughts are the very beginning of our creative process so writing mine out will bring me some satisfaction. In the last months since I've been here many things have changed, though many have stayed the same. I am back at work in a wonderful hair salon, working with a bunch of lovely ladies. I've also become a representative for an amazing makeup company. It's a little bit of a struggle but I'm not putting pressure on myself. My beautiful boys are getting older, both are at school now. I've been neglecting my yoga big time but I'm hoping to get back into it as soon as I can get motivated. I feel like I'm busy all of the time but my organisational skills are a little bit lacking and I think that if I could organise myself better I'd feel a lot less busy. I am also dreaming of enrolling in a fantastic new makeup academy that is coming to town to stay. I would absolutely love to complete a few makeup courses, I'd also love to get back into photography. I know all of these things are not possible for me right now but a girl can dream :D I hope that now I've begun putting words down in my blog that maybe I can use it to help encourage and motivate me back into doing the things that make me happy. Until next time x